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sahuoy 61, Male, Illinois, USA - 44 entries

Aug 2012
2:49 PM CST

Scatter-brained... In spite of many interests and having fun of their pursuit I must whittle this spontaneous agenda down to a manageable few. Most having little reward or purpose other than fun of the hunt do keep me entertained. Chasing girls is an expensive and can be time consuming art depending on the one fancied. Not an option. Focus. Focus. Focus. Look into the future, konnekt the dots, produce prosperity. Education is paramount. Education is the only weapon with which one can slay the evils and champion the goods of the world. Fingers crossed. Handbook, the holy bible, in hand.

I have a knack of inadvertantly looking at other people no matter where I go for sake of I guess not having someone with me to share the experiences. While not interested in things gay, I seem to attract the attentions of some guys which in turn results in them constantly looking at me. This is not my intent. Just being myself with no sexual innuendo's implied as I prefer and do get more females though most all the observations and vibes seem to indicate monetary and or materialistic gains which doesn't even register on my scaled spectrum of finding happiness, love, peace, joy.

I want the real life, not this man made, selfish destructive choice of self preservation many seem to never let go of forsake of chancing and losing gambles made. Retuning ones moral, ethical compass is an individual act not a priority of american social culture burns hot churning the economy by catering to the indivual materialistic possessions. Though one or many need substinence, squeezing by tax, fees and penalties after the law has been changed but not made publicly known causes many to suffer at the whims of politicians, the true root of evil causing many problems.

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sahuoy 61, Male, Illinois, USA - 44 entries

Aug 2012
2:24 PM CST

Finished fall enrollement at Parkland College. English, Math and Philosophy. Chancing a monday switch in English from a 12p to a 10a class to shorten my day. Allowing more time for study and work. Have most everything needed minus a few bits n pieces. 30 years since last time in school. Three classes is one less than full time but I must be cautious starting now leaving enough latitude to make the honor roll, Phi Betta Kappa and Dean's List.

That's my goal. intend on staying at Parkland all day doing homework which is the reason for setting hour breaks between classes for study. Have rented a lock for the semester. Need to add some drinks, noodles and what not to sustain me all day. Trekking to the gas station or grocery store is just interruption and wasted time if I can accomplish the same by stocking supplies. Will be very happy to get some focus and more purpose when school starts monday. Now, being 48 and not 18, I don't have the standard 40 years in front of me for the work force and so am trying to discern the best options which will accelerate my career choice with higher pay and other benefits to bridge this current gap of no income and retirement.

I just cashed out my last bit of stock, took a bath with Bank Of America, have a few hundred dollars in the bank which is helpful but far, far from enough to forever retire, travel, etc. Am cultivating several ideas with school including energy-lock and a tri-colored indicator for doors to aid during a fire escape so those existing do not waste time attempting to escape through a door already locked which cannot be determined until a person attempts to use the door. Critical loss of time. Also, designing air intakes for hybrid cars which would spin blades attached to a generator which would recharge batteries while driving. Not sure how practical but I did win a pair of boots for the idea and would like to pursue it further.

Dislike when inconsiderates pass through your space. This time at Pekara, some one used the microwave, removing their stuff, knocks the glass plate off its center not replacing it., pigs, left for the next self serving customer. Don't like picking up after kids unless they are my own. Truly dislike raising other people's kids. Some people should be sterilized but how do you forecast the ill-willed future without treading on opportunity to do the right thing. Did I really type what I just thought? I did but don't sterilize for minor infractions, thinking more of the Jeffery Dahmer, serial rapist and other miscreants of society.

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MickeyMouse202 57, Female, Rhode Island, USA - 112 entries

Aug 2012
12:13 PM

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ButtTart2000 28, Female, Rhode Island, USA - 2 entries

Aug 2012
3:12 PM CST

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PapaFoote 80, Male, Michigan, USA - 193 entries

Aug 2012
9:18 AM EST

Serious vs. Frivolous!

http://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/ruth-marcus-feeling-ill-over-medicare-debates/2012/08/14/ffaaffe2-e635-11e1-936a-b801f1abab19_story.html Ruth Marcus

Ruth Marcus Opinion Writer Feeling ill over the Medicare debates Papa Foote 8:03 AM EDT

I "Agree"! From my "scan" of political scenes everywhere, it's too bad that "thoughtful thinking" always gets overwhelmed by the "Jokers" - who try to "steal" the "show"!

Actually, from "The Old Goat's" own mind - I have always wanted "serious", over "frivolous" every time!

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PapaFoote 80, Male, Michigan, USA - 193 entries

Aug 2012
6:50 PM EST

Where Do Sentences Come From?

http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2012/08/13/where-do-sentences-come-from/?smid=fb-share Where Do Sentences Come From? By VERLYN KLINKENBORG

Nice thoughts - The Old Goat is 81, got a stroke about 5 years earlier, started learning about "my mind", that had to "start up" again, learned to "read", learned to "verbally" speak (not as good as I want to), BUT over these last 5 years, "my mind" has become "clearer" than ever, even during my "earlier years", when I used to think I was already on the "fast track"!

Somehow, the "little switches" in my mind seemed to be "reset", in a better order, so I good see into the "future", just over the next hill - and it is GOOD, for ME, to be "balanced" as I look to each day with "interest", and sometimes find myself finding a little"part" in this "play" that are Earth Planet spins around or Sun!

Where Do Sentences Come From? opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com How to find good writing in that dark, cavernous place called the mind.

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NoDeadenz 22, Male, New York, USA - 84 entries

Aug 2012
7:57 PM CST

Never saw this coming

Since my last entry my life has taken many turns, mostly for the worst. On the dont know why he chose to hurt me especially when he claimed to love me. What did I do wrong, was it trusting him, thought that was the very foundation of building a relationship. I believed him partly that is... told my husband what happens of� course he blame for being @ his home alone in his bed. I believe no means just that. I am angry he initially didn't believe me, for this I delayed calling the police and making a report. John want me to relive this shit every day! I am not interested in sex and of course he cant understand or care why. All�� I hear is about his needs, how wrong I was to think he cared beyond the physical. He constantly comments or tries to� elicit a response /reaction from me. Truly it is draining, to have to constantly be victimized by husband, who wont allow me to heal. He would like me to give him a play by play in regards to what happened. I wish this was a nightmare or a lie. Because at any moment I could get back to living! Denial� has set in I keep saying this isn't happening to me again. If I were ugly than sin I question whether I would be believed. yet because I am��assertive,confident intelligent: people believe I can not only see a rapist coming I can also prevent a rape from occurring. Men and women think differently about the matter. I have been told numerous times that I am at fault because I am married and "sending mixed signals". yes initially� I thought he was alright with a few quirks, no read flags minus the comment about it always being this way when he dated women. How� sexually assaulting someone your dating and consider this the norm.
I saw him today, was no way to avoid him the bus was crowded in addition to my brain with thoughts of rapping my uhaul lock upside his head. He was�� blocking my exit way, when I pushed him partly with my purse and body. He followed me off the bus trying to explain his stance. my anger became explosive screaming, belligerent desperately trying to gain understanding of� simply Y.
Y he chose me Y he hurt me Y he betrayed my trust also Y did he keep inquiring about my husband. He told me we can work things out, which made me laugh. How can I over come this, its criminal also depraved. I have yet to meet a woman who wanted to be raped! Stupid me for trying to move on forget about john, trusting a con wanting to confide/cherish someone who isn't worthy.

The day before this, john called me a prostitute/whore for this is when the rubber met the road we were done! I�told me him so prior to this he was pissed but I could not go on pretending all was well. I told him I was getting out not that I wanted out.After this he called pastor stating he wanted to reconcile. Were working on it however some days are quite difficult. Just maintaining� my own authenticity is a chore, this anger is often suppressed with apathy. I pretend to be unaffected to cover what it is that I really feel. Which is pure rage, if john knew he� would probably abandon me as he so frequently does. If I don't address this issue soon I will explode!��

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ShafawnD 61, Female, Tennessee, USA - 12 entries

Aug 2012
10:47 PM EST

word

Pastor said after singing Sunday

The plan that God has to use you is from the foundation of the world. �He will bring good things into your life and every tongue that rises up to accuse you God will condemn.

I knew that was for me :)

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sahuoy 61, Male, Illinois, USA - 44 entries

Aug 2012
3:45 AM CST

Difficult to get in deeper thought about many things such as school, career, putting everything into perspective, keeping all in focus so balance can be maintained. Most of my entire life has been spent on sure fire instantaneous gut response. This is not easy especially doing so for many first times as I have little history of anything other than this type of behavior.

Lovin some Kenny G, End Of The Night, timeless. Makes me think of loving my woman. Absolutely beautiful.

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StacyNorris 50, Female, Tennessee, USA - 2 entries

Aug 2012
5:44 PM

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"We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty." - Mother Teresa I am going to miss my girls!!!!

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